Ethan’s time at Mid Winter 2

So this weekend I have been in Glen Rose at our conference slt event Mid Winter 2. The theme has been go deep, focused around the book of Jonah. It has been brought up within worship and small groups the question of what whale are you in right now. I thought and thought about this question and I came to the conclusion that I'm not in a whale; I don't feel like I'm running away from what God is calling me to do, but maybe the opposite. I think that maybe instead I might be like in a racecar with my call to ministry. I sat down today with my youth worker friends Jason and Abby today and they helped me come to this conclusion; we got on some topic about someone in seminary and I said that I wished that I was in seminary…well long story short my brain became scrambled and my future long term and just my future as a youth is all that I could think about the whole day.

These are just a couple of questions or ideas I've been thinking of: Do I need to just chill, I really need to quit being so freaking serious, or should I not change a thing (but maybe not be so anxious for ordination).

Valentine’s Day Theology

Before I get to the theology there is a story which I must tell which led to the scriptural thought.

A couple of weeks ago we had our coronation which is like prom at school, and I asked this girl to go with me; which she did. The week after that I asked her to go on another date for tomorrow night; I got turned down. This got me thinking about my life and its future…

I thought about this and I did some research in scripture, I came across Matthew 19:10-12, ¹⁰The disciples said to him, "If this is the situation between a husband and wife, it is better not to marry."  ¹¹Jesus replied, "Not everyone can accept this word, but only those to whom it has been given. ¹²For some are eunuchs because they were born that way; others were made that way by men; and others have renounced marriage^[c]because of the kingdom of heaven. The one who can accept this should accept "

Does anyone else interpret this to mean that Jesus is saying that it is better not to get married? Now I know that the date I talked about in my story is at one end of a spectrum and marriage is on the other, but I can't help but think that at age 16 I understand this verse and have the same feeling I get when I think about my call to ministry. I feel the Holy Spirit in my mind and I have this great guidance feeling that I know what needs to happen. I feel that maybe dating is not for me, maybe its crucial or beneficial to my ministry to not have that connection.

I also thought about Marriage/Relationships and the word Love. Is love in marriage or a relationship different from the love which we should show to our God and every other person on this earth? Should it be different?